Mentally Orgasmic

O n October 1st I entered my tenth month of celibacy and I will admit I am more frustrated than ever. So you may be asking yourself "why are you celibate"? Simple "I am looking for a monogamous relationship"! I want to be with someone that I can be totally uninhibited with sexually.  I can't be that way with someone that I am just having casual sex with. I will admit that I am possessive and that I am more aroused when I am the only one making you feel some kind of way. Until I can find that special someone I rather remain celibate because just having casual sex no longer satisfies me anymore.  Recently one of my close friends asked me some interesting questions about me being celibate. What is it like to be celibate? I am ten months in and I am going to be very truthful when I say that I have been very stressed and frustrated. I haven’t even used any toys to release any sexual tension. What do you do when you become aroused? Food has become my best friend....

The complete freedom from all kinds of sexual thoughts and wishes is known as celibacy. It is defined as a complete and the total control of all senses in thoughts, words, and deeds. Celibacy is not just bachelorhood, but a strict abstinence from sexual intercourse, auto-erotic manifestations, masturbation, homosexual acts and all pervert sexual practices.  There are many different reasons why some people practice celibacy. Some of these reasons include: Religious belief, focus on one's career, an attempt to gain a sense of self and independence from others, to avoiding being emotionally hurt, or the lack of a sexual appetite. According to the basics of celibacy semen is the essence of life and should not be wasted if one wants to stay healthy. The many benefits of celibacy include: Social benefits: People who practice celibacy can socialize with and get involved in dating with people of opposite sex without having any pressures and discomfort of negotiating with them for sex. ...

What is LOVE?...... Is LOVE truly unconditional?...... Is LOVE truly blind or do we simply put on the "shades"?.....Why do we tend to hurt those who love us most?........Why isn't LOVE EASY or is it supposed to be, when its RIGHT? Or does it take WORK? When does ones mistake out weigh the mistakes of another? These are some questions that I have been forced to ask my HEART lately and to be honest I am no more closer to finding an answer than I was the day I decided to leave.... I simply bottled my feelings up, placed a band-aid over my heart, and shelved another broken heart on aisle 9 next to the bottle of HURT, PAIN & DISAPPOINTMENT. Is it so hard to ask for someone to love and cherish you like you know you deserve and that you have given whole heartily...or must one be taught? Is it unfair to assume that another person should know the value of TRUE LOVE? or is that learned, one heart break after another; wither you are the one who is doing the heart breakin...

  I am the wife most likely referred to as the “Bitch of a Wife” by the Married man and The Other Woman. I am sure that he calls me other names as well. They may even have a pet name that they both call me. I have some names that I call the both of them too like: Gutter Troll, Ego Maniac, Man Child, Side Piece,  Side Ho, Strumpet, and Crumb-snatcher. I am not here to name call so I'll move on. For the sake of simplicity I will use initials as I refer to us. I will keep “BITCH OF A WIFE” for me, “MY MAN” for married man and “THE OTHER WOMAN” for the other woman. Dear “THE OTHER WOMAN” , I am the centerpiece placed proudly upon the bountiful table that “MY MAN” and I have set. I am surrounded by our children, memories, career, home, our life. You stand off to the side, like an indentured servant, you are not ALL ” O ther W oman” ED to eat at the table.  You must stay at a distance, mouth watering, hoping for a crumb to drop so you can hit your knees and g...

The first time I saw her it was purely by accident. The room was dark except for the moonlight that shined through the windows. The moonlight showed only the silhouettes of the bodies but I could still see them. She was biting her lower lip and her hair was disheveled.  Her her head was turned slightly to the left towards me but her eyes were slightly closed. The left arm was positioned by her right breast slightly elevating her off the bed as her hands gripped the sheets. She used her left hand to push back into him. There he was with his strong muscular body positioned behind her. His facial expression was focused on her form. He placed his left hand on the middle of her back pushing her down to arch her back. He used his right hand that was placed between the crease of her thigh and torso to pull her close as he thrust deeply inside her. The deeper the stroke the more she bit her lip. As sexy as he looked there was something about her that intrigued me. The way her body mo...

My First Anal Encounter My first invitation to offer anal pleasure to a woman came during college when I was dating white girls. I was dating this one girl in particular when I first experienced anal. During a night of intimacy that’s when it happened. I just got done giving her oral stimulation (I once was so eager I got hiccups while eating her out but that’s another story).  The anal sex topic was indeed her idea and yes I was curious but in my mind I was thinking “will my dick smell like shit “, “will it fit”, “will it hurt her – shit will it hurt me”? I thought of the expansion of the sphincter muscle and the tight feeling as if it she were a virgin and the control and then you go for it. She takes my manhood which could break a brick at this point. My Dick was so hard it was throbbing and it was hot she gave me an extra wet blow job, to fully lubricate my shaft.  While turning over to get in doggy style, she just guided my Dick into her ass – working the head first back...